Saturday Night Fever pt1 (6pm - 2am)

6pm: Very nice time with Ashley by the lakeside drinking beers and talking about stuff. Our personal and work situations are very similar. She's moving state side to start a "new" life in hopes are getting kick started professionally. We have many similarities, and our personalities meche well. I don't feel a spark for her, but she's someone I would definitely like to stay in touch with and know better. We have the same kind of sense of humor, which is golden in any relationship if you ask me.

Bella joined us as planned an hour later. I can say it now, the "project" that I've been helping her with involves helping her and giving her pointers about the US, as she will be spending 6 months there next year. It made perfect sense to have Ashley and her meet in that sense, and it served as a perfect occasion to see Bella again after our first "unofficial" date. Unexpectedly she brought her boyfriend, but as it turns out I think it was a positive thing. Ashley and Bella hit it off right away, and look fwd to seeing each other again in Boston, and as they chatted away, I talked with B's bf, and he's actually quite a nice guy, though lacks a lot of maturity, which I believe and which Bella confirmed the other day, is the reason why she has no long term plans with him. Seems like there's an understanding between them, and without me in the picture I suppose they just would look to keep their thing going until she goes to Boston and then end the relationship amicably, at least that's what she pretty much explained to me the other night (minus the part about me). Ashley eventually left, and upon coming back from the restroom, the couple suggested that I join them for the rest of the evening as they were meeting up with some other friends. OK! Long story short, I spent the evening with the group of friends (3 couple, me and this other very cool and funny guy) and I had an excellent time. I was in a very social mood, and I talked with pretty much everybody, including Bella of course. Now about that! I'm sure -if you even give a shit- that you're wondering what's the deal with me and Bella, where do we stand, etc. Well upon seeing her arrive with her BF at the lake bar I wasn't thrilled but I wasn't overly upset about it either. The thing here is that if something happens with Bella, it will happen naturally (I think). There's no point in pressuring her into anything, especially given the bf situation and the fact that we won't be in the same city for a while. This alleviated a lot of pressure, and it made me much more relaxed and social and fun than I was on our "date" for instance, though are date was awesome and sweet and revealed my more intimate, kinda shy side. I hope (and I think) she digs both sides. So anyway, back to the good stuff. Bella and I had 2 or 3 moments, but one in particular where we made eye contact, and where that instant in time, that split moment bla bla bla where that brief flash moment meant more than a thousand words. Her smile, her gaze, my smile, my gaze, we were in total osmose, or whatever the fuck it's called. I also caught what I believe was silent chatter between her and her 2 gfs, and I'm pretty sure that some of the content was about me. I have a feeling the girls kinda know what's going on (even if nothing concrete is going on, there's something going there for absolute fucking certain). Bella's smile and glow when she was talking with her gfs kinda made me thing that yeah, these are good signs. To top it all off, I think even the BF knows totally what is happening, and he even at point said to Bella I "sorry do you mind if i sit there" (next to his gf, I was sitting on the other side of here) and the he kinda smiled suggesting "yeah i know what's going on, it's fine". It was very bizarre, but for now everything seems to be cool, even though the situation is not clear cut. I'm just gonna go with the flow and see what happens. At the end of the night (which actually was only the start for me... see next post) we split, and while saying bye to to Bella I said "ok so let's check signals before I leave next week (for the Big City) and she instantly nodded and said "yeah yeah". Cool.

I'm a bit happy, I'm a bit sad, but I'm relatively serene. I'm in love, I really am. How can you be in love without even BEING with someone? I don't have theories of on all of that mumbo jumbo, all I know is that I KNOW this girl is right for me, and I KNOW there's something there, and my gut just tells me that it's right. ...But I'm gonna be patient, I'm gonna be patient, and I'm gonna be prepared if things don't turn out the way I hope they will. Our wedding will be in 2011 by the way. We'll have 3 kids.

Ok, next up is the rest of the evening, the late hours: 2:30am ---> 7:00am. It involves Shannon, drinking, blood, hospital, and tears. A night to remember.