This will be very short but I just wanted to quickly say that the date with Bella was great. Almost too great, I'm left with an empty feeling now because I feel I'm falling for her, and at the same time I know it's not the right time for it to happen, and it's not the right time for her either. She's going to the US for 6 months, and I'm looking to relocate to The Big City. A long distance relationship is not a good idea. I was away from Maria for two years, and I don't want to live this again, and Bella was very clear in saying she is not looking for that either. I'm kind of at a loss for words right now. I'll write more about the evening tomorrow. In short, it was great, I know now that she does feel something for me, but at the same time she is a very clever and reasonable person, and she's not about to let feelings dictate her life projects and personal ambitions.
AHhhhhhhh FUCK!!!!!! I was so worried about whether she would like me or not that I completely omitted to think about the practical aspect of it all.
Gonna pop a pill and sleep. I need it.
Sex memoirs of a Euro-American single guy nearing 30 and reflecting on what was, and what's ahead...
Disclaimer
What's written in purple is explicit and sexually graphic content - This blog is for readers 18+.
About Me
- B.
- somewhere in Europe.
- I had a nervous breakdown in May, I quit my job, my girlfriend left me, I have been suffering from depression ever since. I am slowly getting better. This is a diary of my road to recovery, and it involves talking a lot about sex.
Cast & Notes
- The City or Big City: London (the city where I will be living soon)
- The Small City: The city I live in, somewhere in Europe.
- Bella (Woman of my Dreams or WD): A girl I met during the summer at a bar. Instantly fell for her and hoping for more, alas she has a bf.
- Shannon: a friend and former colleague who I see quite often as she lives in my neighborhood.
- Nina: Like Shannon, a friend and former colleague. We IM each other pretty much everyday, and often talk about sex. I don't see her a lot as she lives an hour away, but I love her greatly.
- George: Another one of my best friends who lives in London and is from Greece
- Paulo: One of my best friends who is Brazilian and lives in London
- Clara #8: My 8th and most recent sex partner. I fellfor her and she left me after I had a nervous breakdown and quit my job.
- Maria #4: My gf of 4 years between '01 and '05. We've remained good friends.
- Ashley: A nice girl who admitted to liking me once. She is moving out of town soon.
- David: my older brother, 30something, lives in the Big City.
- Scratchy: my loving cat.
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2 comments:
Glad it went well. But...what happened to the boyfriend? And bummer on the US trip she's taking. The good news is that 6 months isn't that long.
I asked her what she was going to do about her boyfriend during her 6 months away, and she said that they had talked it over and that they both agreed that things would end before. He's not very committed to her, and she doesn't believe it's worth continuing a relationship if she'll be away from her boyfriend for 6 months. I'm trying not to think too much about all of that and how it could affect a potential relationship with her. I'm just looking to see how things go this week, and then I'll be off to London, and who knows where we'll be when I come back. She is leaving in a while, 7 months, so who knows what will happen during that time...
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