Nerves

I am so damn nervous for my date/meet/thing with Bella tonight. I wouldn't be this nervous if she didn't have a bf, but the fact that she has a bf is tricky because:

a) she is technically taken
b) makes a move on my part delicate
c) all of the above and more

Correct answer is c with a capital C. Like that: Capital.

I called her at noon to schedule tonight's rdv. I was terrified. I don't ever remember feeling like this before. I've been nervous before a date, but never this bad. I just hope I won't be sweating from anxiety. I'll have to excuse myself the minute I feel a drop on my forehead and not let it become overly obvious how tense I am. I'm almost tempted to take half a pill to calm down, but I won't as it can considerably change my mood, and is pretty much covering my full self, which is not my goal obviously. Oh brother. I need to remind myself that she took the initiative to see me and that her text message seemed quite promising, and at the same time if we just have a nice time and I help her out with her project and that's that, it won't dramatic... but man will I be disappointed. I don't want to feel like I'm missing out on something, and my first impression of this girl is that I really really like her. It'll be a huge letdown if her feelings aren't the same, but I'll have to deal with it and swallow my pride. That being said, I can't let myself go to this date having already lost the battle. I have to think positive, and be sure of myself, confident and of good company. You can do it B!