Fight, Bella and Nina

I never wrote about the 2nd part of Saturday night. Basically, I rejoined Shannon at a club, once it closed down we proceeded to get a bite to eat and while queuing I got into a verbal conflict with a tool who proceed to head butt me right between the eyes, or rather right at the top of my nose which split and bled profusely. A fight ensued, and all is well now, nothing broken, but it was one scary ordeal. My nose is fine but I have to wear one of those stick bandaids. I was pretty soar for a couple of days and I have bruises here and there. What a moron I swear. I'm a non-violent person, and I'm really not too impressed by this first real physical altercation.

So yeah, there's a risk that I will get hurt with the Bella situation, but I have nothing to lose now. I've already fallen for her, now the question is just whether she's interested in me enough to reconsider her current relationship and open up to me, or decide it's not worth starting something when my current situation is quite unclear. We're seeing each other tomorrow afternoon for coffee, maybe some questions will be resolved, but for now my feeling is: There are sure signs, but nothing definite. I'm not going to plan anything, I will go with the flow and if it feels right I'll make a move but most likely I will just honor her relationship and not say much about it and just enjoy the time together before I leave for the Big City. While in the Big City, I'm sure I'll be in contact with her somewhat, but the key thing will be to see how I manage being away from her, and how she's going to be with her boyfriend. All in all, it's a case of if I come back and she's still with him, well that's not good and I'll have to move on, but if on the other hand she has used the month of September to detach herself from him, well then the green light is there and I won't miss it! I'm really falling for this girl hard. She's perfect for me, everyting than love in a person. So sweet.

Lunch with Nina tomorrow. Sex will certainly be a topic of conversation. We joke around a lot that our lunches are in fact secret love encounters. I'll love screwing around with her, we had so much fun, and in between we talk about our relationships, troubles, heart aches. She's the best. She's my go-to girl when it comes to decisions to be taken with Bella. I usually tell her what i plan on doing, and she either says, yeah that's goof, or send the message tomorrow, or add this or take off that. I have her look at the messages Bella sends me to decode them, see if there's stuff that i might missing, or that really nothing more than friendly wording... but i can't help seeing signs here and there and it's actually kinda fun looking around!

Sleep pill in full effect. more more moe soon. xx