Satisfaction

I'm very happy to be in London. So far it's been great, and there's such an energetic vibe here, it's insane. I walked miles today (tube strike) around town and just had a blast being a flâneur and doing people watching. I have many activities planned, and tomorrow I will sign up at a gym for the month and go for drinks with my mates. I'll also take some time to write, and to brainstorm for a project for a job I might be able to apply for (through some networking and luck). This is a very positive thing. I'm not sitting at home sulking and thinking about Bella, I'm actually taking care of myself and enjoying being active and having hope for the future. It sounds cheesy, but when you think of how down I was just recently, it's an enormous revelation for me. I'm cautious, and I'm still taking baby steps, but I can already feel so much progress.

I did text Bella last night. It had been 3 days+ since we last talked, and I simply wanted to send her a little something and tell her that London was going well. She replied the next morning very early, and mentioned she was having and exam today and that she was looking forward to getting an e-mail from me (which I just wrote). It's pretty random news, but I'm just so happy when I hear from her... I need to share.

Being social here means meeting more girls. I'm wondering, should I flirt or not? I'm not with Bella, I might not be anytime soon or at all, but I feel so strongly for her that I almost feel wrong doing something... but shit, if I have an opportunity to have a little fun I have to take I think. It would be a bit absurd not to.

OK, off to bed. Tired from 2 hours of walking in Hyde park and in the streets.